bingo!I got the answer!

你自由吗?

每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着我怀疑是不是只有我的明天没有变得更好未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到

这是叮当的歌。。听过吧？
哈哈~前几个星期的我情绪有点不稳定...因为我觉得自己没有自由..想回去真的觉得自自很白痴~公主一直在埋怨着自己的不到的东西...那身边的人都说公主没依靠上帝咯没祷告咯..啊~一气之下就埋怨说：“人家不是基督徒，没有祷告也不是得到..为什么我却需要祷告依靠神才会得到呢？”说起来要做个基督徒不容易嘛~可是天父爸爸让我找到答案了！

约翰福音8：32
你们必晓得真理，真理必叫你们得自由。

明白真理才是真自由..你听懂了吗？
自由不是我们想做什么就做什么。。向选择什么就选择什么。。而是明白真理~
明白真理叫我们不再做罪的奴仆。。罪的奴仆？就是魔鬼叫你犯罪，你就乖乖的听它的话，做他的仆人。。。你要吗？那你来做我的KAKAK好了..不要做罪的KAKAK..

上帝给你我自由，那是当然的。我们想做什么，没有人可以阻止，可是..在行动之前先分清楚那是从魔鬼而来还是上帝而来..懂吗？！！！
上帝对我们的爱是永不隔绝的。。他不会离开你，他永远爱你。。他的爱就像水一样怎么样都切不断~可是。。。人类对上帝的爱呢？也是如此吗？我没有100%的信心答：“是“ 因为我知道人类本不是完美的，我们是软弱的。我们连自己的性命都不能掌控，你敢说你不软弱你不渺小吗？你敢说你不会犯罪吗？可是我们要尽心、尽性、尽意爱我们的上帝，虽然不完美，可是好过[零]对吧？

你要上帝给你最好的，你就要给上帝最好的。。你有给上帝最好的吗？我还在学习当中。。一起加油吧!

IT WAS FOR FREEDOM THAT CHRIST SET US FREE

who am i?

I'm a Christian..oops did i said i;m a Christian?
haa..i feel sorry to god when i say this..=(
you know why?

errh..its kinda hard to explain..but the only thing that i know is..

i never carries responsibility that a christian suppose to..urm..like say prayer everyday,have a consistent devotion life,pray to god whole heartedly,read bible and sometimes i even blame god for giving me all those obstacles that i have to face....humph..what kind of christian am i? a christian in name only? a sunday christian?
well..all i can say is..I'M WEAK..=(

I'm worrying that one day when i reach the gate of heaven and God will show me this..

aaahh..that is not what i want...God forgive me for all the sins that i have in me..
and now i decided to follow the king of my life..

   











sincerely..open up ur heart and feel the love that falling from the almighty upon u..dont give up!God is by ur side evon!!!

L.I.F.E

DON'T YOU THINK SO?

苦难和遭遇是我们在人生中不可缺少的一部分，它磨练我们，使我们能茁壮成长！

The truth hurts! :(

No MyKad	93071511xxxx
Nama Penuh	ENG YI PEI

Terima kasih diatas permohonan saudara/saudari untuk mendapatkan penajaan JPA. Walau bagaimanapun, permohonan saudara/saudari tidak berjaya.

Sekian, Terima Kasih.

BAHAGIAN PEMBANGUNAN MODAL INSAN
JABATAN PERKHIDMATAN AWAM MALAYSIA

well,as u saw..i'm not selected fot jpa..

JPA was my dream since i was form 1..i kept convinced myself that.. is ok tat i need to suffer in mrsm for few years as i will get the reward back once i finish my SPM..aiih~and now..i get my reward..T.T

HAHA..i'm speechless..only my tears can tell u,how dissapointed i am right now...

School uniform again...=(

hey its11th may 2011 now..today i went to school..0.0
everyone gave me the same reaction when they got to know about this..i got an offer letter to enter SMK INTAN ZAHARA to pursue my form 6 there..hmm...i took a long time to made this decision..as..STPM is my last choice in my further studies planner..

Seriously,my first impression to this school is..B.A.D =(

NO!i dont like it at all...THE FEELING OF STRUGGLING FOR EXAM OVERCOME ME ONCE AGAIN!!(oh..tat is really stressful and im forbia to tat..)

Btw..i met some new(old) friends..i knew they long time ago,but seldom contact..so is consider NEW friends laa...arrghh actually i don't really have a friend here..i  mean in my hometown.So..its kinda hurt when seeing people chatting here and there and i dont get it...@.@ but if u ask me..are u regretting entered MRSM?haha..(a good question..)=)

After a visit to my new school today..i guess my answer is NO..i'm glad that i was a MRSM student..(before this i dont think this way)i should be grateful because i was chosen by the Almighty to experience a different life from my peer..it was challenging but yet i learnt a lot of things that others don't..once i blamed GOD for all those difficulty i had..but now i see..GOD have his own will on everything that happening around us..so be patient and wait for GOD's timing...

NOW...i'm waiting for jpa scholarship offer letter(i don't have confident to get this actually)...and at the same time i appeal for matriculation..that is my planA and B..and my planC is..looking for foundation or preU studies in private U(but the fees are expensive..seriously EXPENSIVE)..lastly..my plan D..taking STPM in SMK INTAN ZAHARA..(i dont really like this..)


You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.

 (see this...read it..think deeply..and digest it..yumyum)haha!

失去你～

Finally i made up my mind...i chose to let go..

 i hope my decision is correct...

thank you and sorry for everything..love dairy

i lost my direction!!!

Everyone are looking for their own destiny..but now..i get lost..


where should i go next?
owh..could someone just hand me a direction map or anything like GPS..
so that i could find back my way..hmm..feeling helpless in searching my way after 17..
though the feeling of being 18 is great but..when i reach the road that diverge into so many branches..i feel like returning to the past..return to the time when i was young,naive and got no worries..

 This remind me about a poem that i learnt in school entitled : THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

my road is diverged into multi branches..
what will happen if i choose the 1st road..
how about 2nd road?
3rd road?
seriously..it is not an easy decision to be made....and i hope i will find my way back soon!
No one could predict the future except for GOD as HE is the creator of us...do pray hard and have faith in HIM..

I live in that solitude which is painful in youth, but delicious in the years of maturity.

- Albert Einstein

         

初次体验～

终于有了属于自己的角落。。一个可以让我发泄心情的地方。。哈哈（很开心！）

这就是所谓的绿鼻子（人家有我也要有）我还在研究着怎样把

我的部落格弄美美！！！