welcome to princess's palace: fresh in mind,carved in heart:)

aww~i miss home so badly now.. :(

facing four cool and emotionless walls for the whole weekend making me gone insane soon..

i cleaned my room..i washed all my clothes..i read novel..i went online..i listened to music..i slept..i screamed i shouted..i did everything i could..but..still..i feel so boring..argghh!!!

hmm..since i have a lot of time now..let me share something with u..

something that i buried deep in my heart....since long time ago..

well..for those who close to me..i'm sure that they know that i studied at mrsm last time..
i call it hell..wonder why?

so..let me bring u to the 'HELL' that i went through..haha..

The awful journey started on 14 feb 2006..yeah..it was valentine's day..

and that was the first time i left home..at that time i wasn't so sure about the place that im going to..

i dont know everything about it..but in my mind..i just wanted to ran way from my home..i wanted to ran way from my parent's nag..i wanted 'freedom' desperately.
hah!how naive was i..and now i regretted..seriously i regretted..

so..mrsm-MAKTAB RENDAH SINS MARA..ppl think that this kind of school is really 'WOW' and everyone are competing to enter that kind of school..but in fact..yes or no..u have to judge it by yourself :)

when i entered..there was only 3 chinese and 3 indian..and the rest is malay..obviously..it is not 'wow' at all..

why i said so?(no offence..i'm not being racism ok?!)

imaging u live with a bunch of alien..and they are talking some language that u cant even get what they talking about..they eat weird foods which u don't used to eat(well..the foods that they provided is not really good..as we paid rm1 per day for 6 meals)..u have to wear clothes that u dont even wear before.. they look at you like you are the alien among them..

and the worst part was u are ALONE!

the most unforgettable feeling that i had was FEAR..i wanted to return to my own planet!!

in fact,i wanted to shift back to my old school but it seem hopeless..because my parents thought that the school is 'WOW' too..= ='''

then, a year after that..i transferred to mrsm pontian,johore..

a place that located thousand miles away from my home..it took 8 hours bus ride..oh ya!i was 14 that time..

seriously..i don't know from where i got the courage to travel alone..but i knew GOD is with me all the time..

normally..i took bus from trg at 10pm..and reach johore at about 5am..then i will stay at the bus station until 6 or 7am wait for another bus to come..kinda scary when surrounded by strangers..

and u dont know what gonna happen to you at the next moment..they might disturb u..they might touch u..they might do something evil on you..well who knows?!

so in pontian..the environment is just more and less like my previous mrsm..i stayed at pontian for 4 years..

the chances for me to return home is less than 5 times a year..ahh..dont u call this awful?

i dont even get to celebrate my birthday at home..not even once during those five years..so,birthday is just like an ordinary day for me..

and i jealous seriously i felt jealous when my friend's parent visited them every weekend and brought them nice home cook foods..and sadly.. i can only see them from far..
i hate rules!and this place is full will rules..
u can only go outing two weeks once(with uniform!)
u cant wear anything that u like(only long long clothes like baju kurung and long pants allowed)
u cant bring hand phone(there'll be sport check whenever they like)..
u cant sleep whenever u like(hostel only unlock during certain time and u have to leave hostel when the stupid siren rang)
u have to tidy up ur room everyday..bla bla bla~
in short,u are not allowed to ENJOY you life!
studied in mrsm was seriously stressful..as u have to maintain your pointer in every single exam..

u have to compete with a lot of incredibly smart student..no tuition teacher is there to help u..everything u have to learn it on your own..

so here is my daily routine..

wake up> class> eat> study> eat> study> sleep

no entertainment allowed..

i called this LIFELESS..haha

so..
do u think that this kind of school is WOW too?