My heart is closed for renovation.

hey peeps..it've been a long time since the last entry..

stories accumulated in my mind,so now is the time to expressed it all..;)

so by looking at the title itself..i bet u already know what am i going to say this time..

so..hell yeah..is some kind of relationship problem that i faced recently..

to be frank,i dont really have experience in all this SHXt..

and i dont know how to handle it well when it comes to me..

sadly..because of my dumbness..i tend to hurt other's feeling without i myself noticed it..

urmm..this guy came to me..and gave me two options..

one,be his gf and another one we become strangers..

does it make sense to you?

this like asking u to choose hell or heaven..uhh!

and well, i requested for the third option..i said we can stay as friend..or maybe close friend beforehand right?

....because deep in my heart..i know..i haven't yet prepare mentally for all this to happen..and this wouldn't last long if my mouth say yes..but my heart say no..

sometime i just dont understand guy..why not u just listen to the girl? instead of follow blindly your own thinking?

aiih..i never expect all this to happen at this moment..and GOD is humor sometimes..

i hurt another guy again..haha..i know i sound evil at some point..but..sorry..im too tired of explaining.

i hope that u'll know..one day..God has his own timing in everything that happen..and true love is worth waiting for..

and God..even though i dont know why all this happen to me at this time,when i need to prepare for my exam and  focus on  my studies..and everything that i have in my mind right now is seriously so confusing..but i know Lord..u're with me all the time..and i cast all my anxiety on you lord..for i know Lord..u care for me..