Life is all about the choices that you made.

Haih..I had some pretty bad days recently..i don't know why..
but i'm pretty sure that my hormones play a big role in this...hmm..It is always some days in a month that make girls feels like it is better to be a guy..seriously..with all the mood swings and the menstrual pain...and at the fear that your pure white dress will become a Japan national flag the next moment you stand up and leave your seat...trust me..u can never enjoy that period when your body is constantly losing blood..

Hmm..when i was busying complaining..out of sudden..and the word 'choices' came across my mind..

We cant choose which whether to have menstruation or not..we can't choose what gender we want to be..we can't choose what hair color we want..we didn't get to choose aren't we?and above of all..we didnt get to choose whether we want to come to world or not..our moms just gave birth to us without even asking for our permission......

Those are the choices that we have no right to choose..how about those choices that we can make?Have you made the right one?

I remember 10 years back..when i was still a small naive girl that doesn't really know that the earth actually spinning...i always dreamt to be a grown up adult..because all the high heels,make ups,dresses,boyfriends and life without parent's nag is just so tempting and heavenly good! So i made a decision that time. A decision to be beautiful and eyes catching women when i grow up..haha!

Then when i first enter my teenage life..i decided to study at boarding school..at that time..i chose my studies instead of a bunch of awesome friends back in my hometown.I was cruel i know.. and as life proceed..the more i have the more i desire..i decided to get good grades in exams..so that i would stand a chance to get scholarships..I decided to be the best among the best...i decided to work alone..i decided to be independent..i decided to be strong and unbreakable...I MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS..there was no one else..but me...and without i realized...in order to feed my own desire..i tend to push people away from my life..including my best friends...hmm..all of that happened because of my decisions.

I remember,making decision was as easy as ABC...it is like choosing your favorite ice-cream flavor..isn't?

But..a simple decision now..give a immeasurable impact to the future you..and of course the people around you..I always thought that i can make the best decisions..i thought i can..but now..a decision of life that i got stuck in ever since i finish my high school..i don't know how to deal with it..i don't know what kind of life to choose...i don't know what else to desire...i don't know my abilities..and a lot of I DON'T KNOW..that keep me stand still at this point..because i scare i might repeat those mistakes that i made over and over again..

I chose to be who i am today..i maybe or maybe not regret..but no one can guarantee me that if i chose the other pathway i would't regret at all right?so..what is made is already made..the only effort to fix those wrong decisions is to live the present to the fullest and continue to make the best decisions in the rest of your life..

the next choices that im going to make..decide who i am tomorrow..i hope i can really make it right :)


hope my little sharing lighten up your day..haha don't be emo like me kay.


CHEERS,

Princess Evon