My tolerance level.

I've been immersed myself a lot of deep thoughts about myself,about everything in life these few days,since I am all alone and believe it or not, today is the third day that I am in my mute mode.Not because of I don't want to talk,but I have no one to talk to.Well,this is something that I expected since days ago,when my friends left the town one after another.But,anyhow it is still a good thing because this me-time period is just so enjoyable and I am loving it.You know I can just wear anything that I like,I cook what I love and on top of all I can do everything that I love to do without even cares about how people will think about me.Without I even telling it,I bet you know how exhausting it is to be judged all the time.

I am not denying that fact that I am actually a person that find it difficult to get pissed off with my friends,my family and so on.And if you ask me why? Well,I don't see the necessity of being angry.Yeah,I used to be a kid who can just sat still and watched my brother tore my kindergarten colouring book and not getting pissed off at a friend who just stepped on my plain white shoes.Sometimes I wonder why I didn't get angry when I should.

Perhaps,I am well aware about the bad things that angriness can bring.Or it just because I have a rather high tolerance level? No,I don't know.

I remember it was once,my friend threw me a challenge.She..yeah was a freaaking She friend.She came to me and messed up my hair,and guess what?I sat still and smiled. LOL..surprisingly that did not pissed me up,but instead it raised the fire in her.So she made a promise that she will make me pissed off at least once before we graduate from school.And I remember that made up a crowd,and everyone was like: yeah,we never seen you glare all this while how is that even possible?." In my mind..."Okay..they were weird.They love seeing people get angry."

But,at the end she manage to do that.She did,and I was so damn angry.I failed to remember why,but I was so pissed that I refused to talk to anyone(my friends) and I called home.Shouting over the phone,telling my mum how bad I felt and I was like:"I'm not gonna friend her any more!" hahaha I was so stupid.And I ran to the toilet and cried my lungs out until my best friends came and comforted me.Ergh..ever since that,we don't
talk to each other..we became so distanced and feel uneasy when seeing each other.Because every time when I saw her around the school,my eyes will glares will fire.hahaha!Oh man,I find it so hilarious looking back at what I did.

And yeah,because of that my tolerance level goes even higher. bwhahha!I can tolerate with just anything that is not physically nor mentally abuse other people or me.Because you know what..angriness doesn't even helps to solve problem instead all it does is just make you even angrier and at the end it will make you go out of your mind.That's true.

I am writing this because I think someone just got on my nerves without he/she even knowing about it and I gotta let it out here and forgive him/her after I have end this post.

I am not a piece of hard metal which conduct heat fast,I am a insulator.A semi-conductor sometimes.hahahha what am I talking about. XD

Anyway,have a good day peeps :)


xoxo


Loves,


Princess Evon